I got through my teen years by being a bit of a clown.
I sort of was good at writing essays. I was never very good at mathematics...
The best part of learning any profession when you're really going through...
The average person puts only 25% of his energy and ability into his work. The world takes off its hat to those who put in more than 50% of their capacity and stands on its head for those few and far between souls who devote 100%.