One of the things I had to learn as a writer was to trust the act of writing....
Like art and politics gangsterism is a very important avenue of assimilation...
It's like driving a car at night. You never see further than your headlights...
Unless you have a perception of who you are as a lawyer you will never be at ease in dealing with legal matters clients or courts. But if you know who you are and why you're there all you need is the expertise and the information.