I don't deal with death very well. My brother John Candy my dad my mom Brandon Tartikoff just a couple of weeks ago. I mean you lose a lot of people in your life and that's one thing I am constantly working on - pain management.
Use those talents you have. You will make it. You will give joy to the world. Take this tip from nature: The woods would be a very silent place if no birds sang except those who sang best.