In my experience there is only one motivation and that is desire. No reasons or principle contain it or stand against it.
If to live is to progress if you are lucky from foolishness to wisdom then...
It evolved from my experience in the fifties growing up during the McCarthy...
But if I have a lot of imagination I could tell myself whatever I wanted you know. I handle myself quite well. I'm kind of fascist with myself you know. There's no discussion. There is an order. You follow it.
