I've learned through experience of playing different characters some of whom were jerks that when you play a character who is pretentious or obnoxious in any way it's important to knock them down a peg.
The truth is I love being alive. And I love feeling free. So if I can't have those things then I feel like a caged animal and I'd rather not be in a cage. I'd rather be dead. And it's real simple. And I think it's not that uncommon.
