It just took all of that to come to a screeching halt to get to the point of having nothing for me to finally realize Hey what are you fighting with this for? Until then I hadn't claimed my faith as my own I had just grown up with it.
Next year I hope there will be even more parties lots of holidays and just having a good time really. Plus wing-walking air shows and learning to fly as they are all things I want to do. I won't be restricted by age.