The truth is I love being alive. And I love feeling free. So if I can't have those things then I feel like a caged animal and I'd rather not be in a cage. I'd rather be dead. And it's real simple. And I think it's not that uncommon.
When future archaeologists dig up the remains of California they're going to find all of those gyms their scary-looking gym equipment and they're going to assume that we were a culture obsessed with torture.
