One's life has value so long as one attributes value to the life of others by means of love friendship indignation and compassion.
The most mediocre of males feels himself a demigod as compared with women.
I loved my 17 years with R.E.M. but I'm ready to reflect assess and move on...
I think a certain amount of anger has been a fuel of mine if you want - but also some sort of sadness and plain mischief of course.