While we can remember the past we cannot write the future. Only our children the future of our community can do that.
Focus on the mind and the soul. Read. Study. Enrol in a course of lectures....
I always felt like my future was at stake every time I stepped on stage and...
Most children - I know I did when I was a kid - fantasize another set of parents. Or fantasize no parents. They don't tell their real parents about that - you don't want to tell Mom and Dad.