I really believe that all of us have a lot of darkness in our souls. Anger rage fear sadness. I don't think that's only reserved for people who have horrible upbringings. I think it really exists and is part of the human condition. I think in the course of your life you figure out ways to deal with that.
It's just an unhealthy way to approach something trying to outdo your last thing. You've gotta trust evolution you've gotta trust that the bar is moving that you don't need to force the bar. It'll just happen.
