If you're that hypersensitive about color and don't have a sense of humor don't marry out of your race.
I really am a woman at peace.
Humor results when society says you can't scratch certain things in public...
Never permit a dichotomy to rule your life a dichotomy in which you hate what you do so you can have pleasure in your spare time. Look for a situation in which your work will give you as much happiness as your spare time.