I love Wagner but the music I prefer is that of a cat hung up by its tail outside a window and trying to stick to the panes of glass with its claws.
Everything considered work is less boring than amusing oneself.
At the end of the day you know love does not happen between two perfect...
I think your alcohol intake has to change. You know usually a big person feels they can drink anything they want to and as much as they want to and I've cut that way back.