So from a very young age my mom tells me that I wanted to be Michael J. Fox. I didn't want to be an actor. I just wanted to be Michael J. Fox for awhile. And then I realized that he was an actor so I pursued that.
You can have a spiritual awakening and discover a new side of you at any age. And best of all love can happen at any age. Life can just start to get exciting when you're in your 40s and 50s. You have to believe that.