I didn't really want to live so anything that was an investment in time made me angry... but also I just felt sad. When the hopelessness is hurting you it's the fixtures and fittings that finish you off.
I'd like to believe that the people that have supported me in my work or...
I had never felt so lonely and so sad in my entire life.
For me modern technology has ruined romance and movies - nobody can run to the airplane gate anymore.