If you don't die of thirst there are blessings in the desert. You can be pulled into limitlessness which we all yearn for or you can do the beauty of minutiae the scrimshaw of tiny and precise. The sky is your ocean and the crystal silence will uplift you like great gospel music or Neil Young.
I haven't ever really relied on relationships with guys. They come around and it's cool but it's never been a big thing. I guess I've just been really distracted by work.