If something is irrational that means it won't work. It's usually unrealistic.
I'm very happy. I like my work and the various aspects of it - going around...
My work always tried to unite the true with the beautiful but when I had to...
Except in very narrow cases where there's breakthrough science that needs patent production worrying about competitors is a waste of time. If you can't out iterate someone who is trying to copy you you're toast anyway.