When I was in New York I was making a living. We had a summer house and a car that I could put in a garage. That's something for a stage actor.
I was a dog in a past life. Really. I'll be walking down the street and dogs...
I wanted to end my life so bad and was in my car ready to go down that ramp...
Real change isn't found in some new way to think about yourself but in freedom from the need to think about yourself at all.