They put chains on me they chained my waist my legs. Put me in the back of a squad car and I literally blacked out. I didn't even - there's whole pieces missing.
God's forgiveness is the only thing. And well I take full responsibility...
I wanted to end my life so bad and was in my car ready to go down that ramp...
My relationship to reality has been so utterly skewed for so long that I don't even notice it any more. It's just my reality.
