I have worked very hard on being aware of my childhood but moving forward and not letting it bring me down emotionally. That is a hard thing - especially when you have children of your own and you remember what happened to you at that age.
You can have a spiritual awakening and discover a new side of you at any age. And best of all love can happen at any age. Life can just start to get exciting when you're in your 40s and 50s. You have to believe that.