It was in San Diego and I was onstage and couldn't remember how to play the guitar properly. I was in terrible pain and my nervous system was just going wild like somebody had just run a car over me.

I have had fans make me the big picture collages of the photo books I have had fans send me birthday cakes... sing to me on my voicemail. I have had fans flash me. I have had older fans give me their bras and underwear onstage.

That's an amazing feeling to walk onstage and you're not thinking about anything you're not thinking about your lines or what you're supposed to do - your body your brain knows so there's freedom. There's not fear there's not nerves.

My size has helped make me an amazing performer too. The cliche of the Funny Fat Friend: I absolutely was that character - I am that character... It's a complicated bag of tools I acquired and I've put them all to work onstage.

I'm actually not an exhibitionist at all. When you get onstage and you get under the lights playing music I feel more hidden and more alone than anywhere else. You hide behind your music and let your emotions come out through the music.