My sense of humor is a turkey and I pull it out of the oven and baste it in reality.
More than anything else my mother wanted to be an actress - a famous actress - which in the 1950s was all about being young sexy and available. She was all that and more. She had big blue eyes alabaster skin a heart-shaped face a beautiful figure. She was just a knockout.
I feel bad about my outlook how I feel about people and society and that I'll never be part of society the way I should.