My entire life has been an attempt to get back to the kind of feelings you have on a field. The sense of brotherhood the esprit de corps the focus - there being no past or future just the ball. As trite as it sounds I was happiest playing ball.
There are a lot of things that are personally uncomfortable to show especially me without makeup and completely bloated or crying. But I've realized that it's time for me to show my audience that you don't have to be perfect to achieve your dreams. Because nobody relates to being perfect.