I think my knowledge of music theory is rooted in jazz theory and a lot of the writers of standards - Rodgers and Hart and Gershwin.
I totally related to Cole Porter's magnetic pull to any piano that was in the room which he was famous for doing as was Gershwin. You couldn't drag them away from a piano.
I have a lack of fear whereas in the past the fear of failure was a powerful motivator. Anyway I have great expectations for the future but I just don't know if I'm the monarch of all I survey.