I worked for MI6 in the Sixties during the great witch-hunts when the shared paranoia of the Cold War gripped the services.
If a lot of people gripped a knife and fork the way they do a golf club they'd starve to death.
Remember always give your best. Never get discouraged. Never be petty. Always remember others may hate you. But those who hate you don't win unless you hate them. And then you destroy yourself.