I want to be alone and work until the day my heads hits the drawing table and I'm dead. Kaput. I feel very much like I want to be with my brother and sister again. They're nowhere. I know they're nowhere and they don't exist but if nowhere means that's where they are that's where I want to be.
I've cried and you'd think I'd be better for it but the sadness just sleeps and it stays in my spine the rest of my life.