I just go where my heart tells me where my gut tells me to go where I'm enjoying my life the most where I feel like I can have the most success. I've truly enjoyed my experience in NASCAR to the point that I want to do it full time.
In the traditional urban novel there is only survival or not. The suburban idea the conformist idea that agony can be seen to and cured by doctors or psychoanalysis or self-knowledge is nowhere to be found in the city. Talking is a way of life but it is not a cure. Same with religion.