I have let my family down and I regret those transgressions with all of my heart.
There would seem to be a limit even for an art preoccupied with boundaries and transgressions beyond which a work reaches its breaking point and becomes an actual failure a mere experimentation.
Coercion may prevent many transgressions but it robs even actions which are legal of a part of their beauty. Freedom may lead to many transgressions but it lends even to vices a less ignoble form.
I have learned throughout my life as a composer chiefly through my mistakes and pursuits of false assumptions not by my exposure to founts of wisdom and knowledge.