I wanted to be a decorator. I wanted to interior design homes and do everything myself.

So if I want to buy a light in a shop and I don't find a light that I like I think to myself what would I like? What would I like to buy? Then I started to imagine and design it for myself a lot of the time.

I design for myself and the first question I ask is 'Would I wear it?'

When I announced the development of Perl 6 I said it was going to be a community design. I designed Perl myself. It's limited by my own brain power. So I wanted Perl 6 to be a community design.

I've wanted to design golf courses ever since I was a kid. I suppose it comes from the way I've played the game. To find the proper way to play any hole I've always begun by asking myself what the architect has tried to do with it.

My style is kind of eclectic and I don't like to do the same thing over and over again. I like to have fun and explore myself so you won't see the same design.

I really see myself continuing to design clothes fragrances.

When I was on a major label I felt obliged to say yes to every interview tour and whatever else. The label is always telling you 'This ain't going to last ' so I worked myself half to death. I learnt from that and I like to pace myself now.

I have sometimes imagined my own death and brought myself to tears.

I love myself. Anything that has my name I'm tickled to death.

I might be deceiving myself but I do not think that I do have an inordinate fear of death.

It is long since I could have adventured on eternity through God's mercy and Christ's merits but death remained somewhat terrible and that now is taken away and now death is no more to me but to cast myself into my husband's arms and to lie down with Him.

If death is in the room it's pretty interesting. But I would also say that I'm interested in getting myself to believe that it's going to happen to me. I'm interested in it because if you're not you're nuts. It's really de facto what we're here to find out about.

I know I'm drinking myself to a slow death but then I'm in no hurry.

When I did 'Bumble-ardy ' I was so intensely aware of death. Eugene my friend and partner was dying here in the house when I did 'Bumble-ardy'. I did 'Bumble-ardy' to save myself. I did not want to die with him. I wanted to live as any human being does.

I'm working myself to death.

If I take death into my life acknowledge it and face it squarely I will free myself from the anxiety of death and the pettiness of life - and only then will I be free to become myself.

But when I lose my temper I find it difficult to forgive myself. I feel I've failed. I can be calm in a crisis in the face of death or things that hurt badly. I don't get hysterical which may be masochistic of me.

I'm opening up my heart to the idea of dating. It's funny - my friends would always come to me for romantic advice. I know nothing and things have changed since I was dating in high school! I'm really trying hard to spend this time working on myself.

I'm not interested in dating. I like being with my own best friend me. Certain women particularly older women cannot believe I like going to a social event by myself. But I do.

If I'm with a man is that going to prevent me from achieving my goal? What sacrifices will I have to make in terms of being myself if I'm with a man? Something that young women find out really quickly is that when you start dating all of a sudden you're supposed to have a role. You're not allowed to just be yourself.

My mom is going to kill me for talking about sleeping with people. But I don't want to put myself in the position where I'm in a monogamous relationship right now. I'm not dating just one person. 'Sex and the City' changed everything for me because those girls would sleep with so many people.

I have stepped off the relationship scene to come to terms with myself. I have spent most of my adult life being 'someone's girlfriend' and now I am happy being single.

My boyfriend calls me 'princess' but I think of myself more along the lines of 'monkey' and 'retard'.