I was trying to make art that my son could look on in the future and would realize I was thinking about him very much during these times... that he can look and see my dad's thinking about me but to also embed in these things something that is bigger than all of us.
If you met my dad I think a lot of things would be put to rest. Because my pops is a pretty silly guy. But Coldcut they're based in the U.K. I'm a big fan of jazz music so American music has had a big influence on what I listen to.
Things with my dad were pretty good until I won an Academy Award. He was really loving to me until I got more attention than he did. Then he hated me.
Dad I'm in some trouble. There's been an accident and you're going to hear all sorts of things about me from now on. Terrible things.
When you get pure joy out of 'being' rather than 'doing' or 'seeing ' that's when you realize how big and unexplainable some things are and being a dad is one of those very few things.
My dad was very fun and very adventurous and from a formative age I learned to value men who would do things on a whim.
As much as I transferred my mother to Elizabeth Shore of The Black Dahlia as much as her dad mutated into an obsession with crime in general well I have thought about other things throughout the years.
Life is different than it was in the Nineties. I'm a dad and there are other things I have to get done in an afternoon than just being an artist.
I didn't really hear any other music other than what my dad was working on until I was 12. My recollection of hearing other music was that I liked some things that I heard but I always thought 'Where's the rest of it?' It didn't have the same amount of detail or instrumentation or imagination in the arrangements.
I liked a lot of the things other people liked - Jimi Hendrix The Beatles Van Halen AC/DC - but if I compared it to my dad's music there just seemed to be elements missing.
And you know my dad would show me some things sometimes but the best things that I got to do were to actually see really good players play up close. That gives you an idea of fingering and technique and what not.
Well Steve Vai joined my dad's band right around the time when I actually started playing guitar. So he gave me a couple of lessons on fundamentals and gave me some scales and practice things to work on. But I pretty much learned everything by ear.
I knew that I needed to do something that I desperately loved. There was a period where I did question if it was acting because I knew that I would be making things hard on myself. I knew that there was going to be a little bit of a hullabaloo because of my dad being who he is and all that.
I am an obsessive garage cleaner - my wife and the neighbors make fun of me. I remember that my father was the same way and now when I'm out there unearthing things in the garage I realize I am becoming my dad!
Your kids can say some cruel things to you at times. For example Nicole Miles and Sofie are standing there in the room and I'm dressed to kill in my own mind. They'll say to me 'Dad you're not going out there looking like that are you?' If that doesn't kill a star I don't know what does!
Playing music has always felt very natural. You know you do try to do other things and you do learn lessons that way but eventually - well... if your dad is a plumber you become a plumber. It's the family business and I felt like I was taking over the family business.
My dad? He died when I was 19 which is a bad time for your dad to die because there's an awful lot of things you have to resolve with your parents past your teens if you've been a difficult teenager.
My dad was this sort of avant-garde guy who did all kinds of weird things. He was a true original and anybody who met him never forgot him.
My dad was depressed a lot of the time and there were a lot of things in his life that he never resolved.
My dad said 'The thing that I was told that was really helpful was that I mustn't be afraid of the things I was afraid of when I was five years old'. The shock of his childhood had put him in this defensive crouch against the world and he needed to know that he had a nice wife and kids and it wasn't the same any more.
My memories are of my dad taking me to football on Saturday mornings and my mum taking me swimming. Those are the things I remember from my childhood not sitting around the table debating capitalism and the profit squeeze.
As a father now I wouldn't do what my dad did because it left me feeling emotionally unstable as a kid. But he didn't do the things he did out of selfishness or malice.
I was lucky to have my dad in my life. As crazy as things got I always had him to put his hand on my shoulder.
I grew up in Chicago so I've always been a Bears fan. Dad used to take me to Bears games and Cubs games. My brother used to ride me over to Lake Forest College on his Honda Supersport and we'd watch the Bears practice. I remember those guys out there as monsters - they were the biggest things I've ever seen!
If I have my health I can carry on. There will be a point when I do quit but I have absolutely no idea when that is.